Unsuspecting Mother
Going Through the Unknown
I’m 22 with two beautiful little girls that I never expected to have. I've heard many women complain about getting pregnant and it not being planned and how they hate it and all this and that. I'll admit when I found out I was pregnant with my first born I lost it, bawling my eyes out. I wasn’t in a stable relationship with the father, we were friends with benefits to put it nicely. I was so scared he'd walk away from me and I’d be a single mom all alone.
Never once did he turn his back on me we turned a relationship of a month into 2 years now with 2 beautiful girls. Was I ready to be a mother at 20? Heck no, but be honest, what woman is ever ready to be a mother at first? Scared didn’t begin to describe how I felt throughout my pregnancy. What made it worse was that it was a very rough pregnancy; I was in and out of the hospital weekly at least.
On April 22nd at 6 in the morning I was rushed to the hospital my water had broke at 3 in the morning; it was time. Hours upon hours later I finally welcomed my baby girl into the world. Looking down and that beautiful little red head I knew I had to be the perfect mother for her, was I ready though? Heck no, I had no idea how to raise a baby but I had help from my mother who raised 4 children alone as well.
When I hear women complain about their children and how they wish they never had kids, how kids are such hassle, how they had to drop there whole life for the kids, it just makes me sick. I'll admit when I first found out I was pregnant I had similar thoughts but I wiped them clear immediately. I’m sorry but if you didn’t want to be a mother then no offense you should have kept your dang legs closed or told that guy to wrap it. You made the choice to have sex so man up and take responsibility. Don’t complain about it and don’t blame your children for your screw up.
My children are my life now; sometimes I wish I could change things maybe not get pregnant so soon but I also know that I wouldn’t want to change things because lord knows if I'd still have my little girls if I did. Life isn’t easy, it's hard and confusing and down right frustrating at times but everything happens for a reason I truly believe that.
I've had many people ask me if I regret having children. No I don’t I hate how it all came about but no I don’t regret my children. I have a wonderful fiancé and two beautiful girls with me now how could I ever regret that.
Even to this day it's been very difficult with my girls having a toddler and a new born and a fiancee that works 12 hour shifts isn't easy at all but I make it work because I decided to carry my daughter and give birth. I decided to grow up and be a mother when I found out I was pregnant.
It's not easy for women who aren't expecting to end up pregnant. It's not easy for women who are trying to get pregnant either. No matter how you ended up pregnant, planned or no, if you make the decision to keep the baby, then you have to take the responsibilities that come along with it.
This is to all the women out there, mothers, mothers to be, all of you. You're not alone, we all have a story behind our children but remember you made the choice to be a mother so be the mother you want your children to be. Always remember there is help everywhere you look even online.
About the Creator
Kirsta Harrington
Im 22 with a fiance and 2 beautiful little girls. Im a stay at home mom right now and i love reading and writing
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