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Mommyhood

By Brianna BrookshirePublished 6 years ago 3 min read
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Just take a deep breath, calm down. I repeat that to myself at least 10 times a day, or tell myself it will get better. Life can’t possibly be this crazy all the time. I am a stay at home mom and well, basically I feel like I could go insane at any given moment. I know you other moms know how I feel. Some days I feel like a complete failure cause I can’t manage to get things done; sometimes I feel like super mom and get everything done. My son is four with the attitude of a teenager and energy like the Energizer bunny. My daughter is almost 10 months old and in a stage where if I’m more than 2 feet away from her she completely freaks out! I love that she’s a mommy’s girl, but some days it’s impossible to get anything done, which goes back to why I feel like a failure. My son is just now becoming jealous, so he’s always doing something to get attention. When we first brought her home he always wanted to hold her, help feed her, didn’t want anyone having her, and now he hurts her, sometimes on purpose but he still wants to hold her and doesn’t like her out of his sight. He’s a sweet kid and loves his sister but oh my gosh he’s non stop with the questions, back talking, bothering his sister, etc... When I tell him "no" he says, “well, I said yes,” or if I tell him I’m going to take his tablet, he replies with, “I take your phone.” Don’t get me wrong, I love being a mom, and I am glad I get to be home with them but sometimes I need a break, something my husband doesn’t understand. He means well, as I’m sure most men do, but in reality, any stay at home mom NEEDS A BREAK! We don’t ask for much, we would just like to make it through a shower without being needed or maybe sit down and eat our food while it’s hot, not get up to get everyone something they forgot to ask for or wipe a butt. Not even going to lie, days that have been completely crazy, after dinner I go hide in the bathroom, LOL. Sometimes you just have to. I’ve tried being the “Pinterest” mom— setting schedules, trying different activities, and baking. But I’m human and so are my kids, so it just didn’t work out like I had hoped, but that’s life. Kudos to those moms who can make it work. My life is chaotic and messy, some days I don’t know how I’m going to make it through and just want to scream, others I love on my kids all day long, when they let me. My son says he’s a big boy, so his hugs and kisses are rare. At the end of the day, I’m glad and proud of who my kids are; they make my world go around and drive me crazy, but I love them and I couldn’t imagine my life without them. I dread the day they don’t need me anymore. I may complain until I’m blue in the face, but I love doing for them and will always do for them. Being a mom is a blessing; I didn’t really have one growing up so a lot of my efforts come from what my dad showed me what a parent should be and what I wish my mother would have done.

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