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Mission Abroad

By Smita AgarwalPublished 6 years ago 5 min read
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I want to introduce myself to everyone as a pessimist, no laughs please. I can trace back my existence to many years as a bud in my mother's womb. Nourished by her blood and love, I was born a girl. And then started my journey of life from a dark, hidden, crampy interior to the outer world full of lights, energy, enthusiasm, learning and many many more surprises.

Blessed with loving and protective parents and grandparents, my childhood was awesome. I used to be a very talkative kid, as they say and also somehow remembered my past life. Yes, I did. Overwhelmed by my obsession to always remember my past, my mother tried to erase that away from my mind, obviously she did not want to lose her flesh and blood. With time, I forgot almost everything and started treading on the path called life.

I was a brilliant little girl, as they say again and was upgraded to the next grade even when I was underage, maybe the teachers thought that was the best. So on and on, with a very happy childhood my journey went on. Abundant love and good values were the tonic that really helped.

I had a special bonding with my mother, Mamma, and my father, Papi, and then Pai because "Papi" has a different literal meaning. And a very special one with my grandfather, Ji, and grandmother, Ma. I have learned a lot from them.

Those nights when there was no electricity, the whole family gathered outside in the "baranda" or verandah to sit on "manjis" or charpoys and enjoy sessions of spooky tales, antyakshari—singing of songs starting with the last letter of the previous song, jokes, and what not. Interestingly, no inverters or generators or mobile phones to take anyone away from the togetherness and warmth of a close-knit family. So many mosquitos to keep us company and newspapers used as hand fans. No complaints against anybody, only closeness and happiness and lot of patience awaiting the return of "light" or electricity.

Life was so simple with no worries at all, laying beside Mamma on a manji and gazing at the stars, she telling stories from Ramayana and Shree Krishna's life. It was pure bliss, heaven on earth.

The journey went on and on and on, me getting bigger and timider and shyer. My little brother came into my life, I was overjoyed.

Then came a change in the form of change in school and then got to make new friends, which was quite difficult at first.

Then things smoothened up and the journey went on. Meanwhile, tragedy struck and I lost my grandmother. Time came to say adieu to school and step into the not-so protected world. Shyness overcame me in the new stage as well, however once again time came to my rescue and the smoothening happened. Three years flew by amidst new friendships, studies, and experiences. The journey went on, destiny played its part, I lost my grandfather. Shyness was still there, however, I got my first job at the age of nineteen, was super excited. A new and different experience it was but shyness, lack of confidence, and timidity made things difficult and I wanted to quit. Change is always overwhelming for me and I wanted the easy way out-escape the situation. But somehow, I managed to stick to my job and little did I know then that this job is going to last for a glorious twenty five years of my life. During that period, I started becoming more confident and less shy, better prepared to face the ever-changing world. Became quite ambitious, wanted to do this-that but then again, seeing the changes involved, withdrew myself into my shell. No changes for me! The journey went on and I met the love of my life, my soul-mate, my everything. A very understanding and caring person, my confidence levels saw a hype again. We entered into wedlock and a forever fearer of change, experienced the biggest change of my life. I was no longer under the protective umbrella of my parents, physically and started another chapter of my life in a new setup.

It was another new experience, where I learned so much. Change knocked again in the form of a new life which stirred within me. Now it was my turn to nourish the tiny bud with my blood and love and then he opened his beautiful eyes to see this world. My son, my beautiful son, my world. Change change change, everything changed around me. Days and nights passed just thinking and caring about my little bundle of joy. The journey went on. Life became busier than before, the graph of my confidence level rose and shyness came down. Then came another knock on my door, another bundle of joy, my little boy again. More responsibilities, more changes, less time for myself but it was all fun. My family was complete, as they say and the journey went on. I settled myself with my family and my mate grew in his career. Things were smooth, perfection everywhere.

A bigger change was around the corner, we made the biggest-ever decision of our life, to leave our near and dear ones, our work, our country and move to a foreign land of more opportunities. Destiny played its part again and we reached the land of opportunities. A very positive approach, good health, courage, money, and a dream of good prospects for our sons brought us here. And the journey went on. Positivity gradually started to turn negative, health meter low, money difficult to earn but the dream of good prospects for kids kindled a hope.

So a timid, shy and a change-averter got to experience a very mammoth change in the middle years of her life.

So in a nutshell, change should not be something to be afraid of, infact the more one wants to remain away from change and escape, the more it follows so the best plan is to accept and let the journey go on.

And the journey goes on............................

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Smita Agarwal

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