Dear Family

Dear Mom,

I don’t understand why you hold grudges for so long, aren’t you tired of being angry? You stay mad at your brother as if he really hurt you. If he did why don’t you tell him? Put your pride aside and let him know how much he hurt you when my nana died and he took everything that was supposed to go to you for him. Why don’t you talk to me about what happened when I was a teenager in high school. Why you stood by and did nothing as my aunt lied and framed me? She said I did drugs all because I was skinny. You knew it wasn’t true and you stood there and let her tell everyone those lies. I was hurt but I didn’t hold that grudge against you. You are still my mom and I love you so I don’t want you to keep all this toxic negativity in your body. You are strong, and you raised me on your own in that house with my nana. I wish you would learn to be happy. I wish you would find it in your heart to forgive your brother. You only have one, so don’t wait until it’s too late and one day he’s just gone. You will hold more anger and pain that you will not be able to cope with. Go tell your brother, my uncle, that you forgive him.

Dear Uncle K,

I can’t ignore you like my mom, because you were the father figure when my dad was gone. I love you like a dad, but it hurts me that you and your wife took things that my nana left for me and kept them for yourselves. All I wanted after my nana passed was her ring she had promised me as a child and you took that, and for what? None of your kids are married or will be getting married. I wanted those dolls, those porcelain dolls that had all our birthstones that she promised me. No! You took those too. What did I do to deserve nothing from the one person I would have done anything for? I loved my nana, and I took care of her. In fact, we took care of each other. She left me a pretty pink jewelry box with dimes she had been saving for me for years since I was born and yet somehow those magically disappeared after your wife got her hands on them. I don’t blame you for her taking things from me and lying to me, but I do blame you for watching as she took everything from me. I love you but I hate that you left me to the wolves just because I chose a man you didn’t think was good enough for me. I forgive you for that, but I don’t forgive her, that woman you love, your wife, my aunt.

Dear Auntie D,

Words cannot express the amount of hate and anger I have for you. I mean, where should I start? How about the day you framed me by doing your own little bullshit test and told my mom and my whole family I tested positive for cocaine. First off, I never did drugs in my life and I wasn’t going to start it in high school. What was your reason for lying about me? Did you really think that me ditching one class every morning, was cause for you to create such a horrible rumor about me? I was skinny because I was walking to and from school every morning and was doing aerobics every day at school for P.E. I can forgive you telling my mom and your family that lie, but I cannot forgive you for telling the one person in this world I loved the most that lie. You telling my nana that lie has been the most devastating moment in my life. I couldn’t believe you could be so evil. That’s what you are, evil. You hurt everyone who doesn’t agree with your ways. You deceive them with your lies and you feed off the drama you create with your dirty mouth. You feel it now don’t you? All the wrong you caused people and those you swore you loved. You feel the consequences from all of your dirty and evil deeds coming back to you. Well dear, that’s karma. I watch from afar as it surrounds you. I watch it consume your life and every time you feel that ounce of happiness, karma comes and rips it from your life. Just like you how you ripped whatever ounce of dignity I had in my moments trying to explain how you, my uncle’s wife, told a lie about me. No matter what you do, I want it to haunt you because my nana left this world thinking that your lies were true. That is what I can’t forgive. I will never forgive you for that. EVER!

Dear Nana,

I miss you so much! It’s been ten years since you passed from colon cancer. I remember thinking that deadly curse is something we all pray none of our loved ones ever have to experience. Honestly, if my daughter hadn’t been two at the time, I probably would have taken your passing 10x worse than I did. You were my whole world before her. I loved you so much. We took care of each other. You always had something good to say. It didn’t matter if things went bad, you never complained. I try even now to be just like you. I try not to complain. I try to make light of everything, but I can’t always. God I wonder how you did it. I know that with everything that is happening now you must be so disappointed in your family. I mean look what we’ve become. We don’t get together like we used to. We don’t value family over everything anymore. We barely even get along. I wish you were here, you could teach my baby girls so much. They would love you just as much as me. I went to your grave on Memorial Day to see you and grandpa. I didn’t say much because mom was there, but I wanted to tell you so much. I love you forever and I don’t go a day without thinking of you in some way. I feel like the reason I accept my fate as inevitability is because I am waiting for that day that we will united again in heaven.