Crazy Life of a Stay at Home Mom

So, I was looking in the mirror not long ago and I had some major self confidence issues arise. Anyone else have that problem??

I’m a mom to two beautiful children, and after having my daughter... I decided to have my tubes tied because she completed our little family. I’m certain having my tubes tied is what caused me to have major self confidence issues. I am trying to conquer that issue though, by making myself exercise. Seems like after you have children, your body just doesn’t go back to like it was before you had children. So, I am making it public and maybe I’ll actually go through with losing this post baby body from when I had my daughter a few years ago. My husband doesn’t see my flaws though, and that’s another reason why I just love him so darn much. He calls my stretch marks, my battle scars. *insert smile here* He’s pretty amazing. Don’t let all this mushy talk let you think we have the perfect life, because we don’t. We have our flaws and our ups and downs just like any other marriage. But, I’m a wife to a veteran of the US Army. He has seen and done things, that I can’t even imagine. So, yes we have moments where we yell at one another. But, then we go on about our day. And I know at the end of every day he couldn’t do life without me, and I couldn’t do life without him either.

You know, there was a time where we had brought up the word divorce. However, that word is just not an option in our marriage. Because, we never want our children to go through what we did. We both come from broken homes, and it was rough on both of us. My Grandma Cathy, who sadly passed away a few years ago.. She was my rock and the one person that was always there for me, from the moment I was born until the day she passed away. *insert crying my eyes out* I miss her so much.

I probably went into detail a little too much, but here’s a little bit more about my life: I have a son named Cohen, and a daughter named Chloe. They along with their dad are my life and mean everything in the world to me. Not sure what I would do without them. Thirteen years ago, my husband (Jonathan) saved me from myself in a way and he’s still saving me from my inner demons. I was in my twenties and felt like no one cared about me, and in walked Jonathan. My bright and shining hero. He had just come home from his first deployment to Iraq, and we had a whirlwind romance. We done everything backwards.. Three months after we met, I found out I was pregnant with our son. Jonathan didn’t mind either, he asked me to marry him and we’ve been inseparable since. He’s a wonderful husband and father. I am truly blessed, and couldn’t ask for a better husband. Three years into our marriage, Jonathan was called for duty to go to Iraq again. That was the hardest part of our marriage and my life to date. Having to say see you later, not knowing if that was true. But, thankfully with the internet and phone calls we survived. He came home right before Christmas from what would be his last deployment. I couldn’t have been happier than that day I drove to Mississippi to welcome him home and to bring him back home. I missed him so much, and in a way I’m thankful that he ended up getting medically discharged a few years ago. He has PTSD and a number of other things, but I’m just thankful he’s in one piece and I don’t have to share him with the Army anymore. I love him so much, and to be blunt... deployments are hard. My heart goes out every family who has a loved one in the military. Being Jonathan’s wife has taught me just how strong and courageous I can be. I volunteered to be in the FRG, and that was so rewarding and awesome. I miss those days of serving as President of the FRG at my husband’s unit. With that being said, if you have a loved one in the military, please volunteer to help with the FRG. I promise you won’t regret it. I’ve actually been looking into volunteering again. I know my husband isn’t in the Army anymore, but he’s a veteran and I know there has to be a number of organizations for me to volunteer my extra time to help someone in need. I’m also looking into going back to school. I keep changing my mind on what I want to do with my life, professionally that is.

You know when you’re a mom, you have to choose a career that has flexibility and work hours that work around your children’s schedule. My husband works long hours, so I’m currently a stay at home mom.

That just about sums up my personal life.

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~XOXO~

CC