Cousin Natalie: Yes We Will Save Your Seat!
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Natalie was only 65 years old when she passed away from esophageal cancer in the summer of 2017. She was my first cousin, my father’s younger brother’s eldest daughter. For an entire year, I hadn’t heard from Natalie and found it odd every time I called, I got her voicemail and she never returned my calls. A few months before she passed away, I attended a cousin’s reunion and her younger sister Arlene, told me that she wasn’t feeling well and couldn’t make it. In the back of my mind, I knew something was wrong.
So it was quite devastating to receive a call from my mom who had just talked to Arlene and was informed that Natalie had cancer for a year and was in the hospital, with a day to live. After rounds of chemotherapy and four (unsuccessful) surgeries, Natalie was in a non-responsive state. We learned that she only let the immediate family know about her condition, as she didn’t want to burden any other family member with the news of her illness.
After the funeral I couldn’t stop thinking about Natalie. We lived close to my uncle in Queens, NY, and as kids would see our cousins often. As an adult, I didn’t see Natalie as often as I did as a child but we always stayed in touch. In early adulthood Natalie had a turbulent life, having gone through a divorce after her husband got in trouble with the law. Nonetheless she raised two great kids and was enjoying her life with a long-term boyfriend (and three dogs), living in a recently purchased house on Long Island, at the time of her untimely passing.
I felt compelled to do something creative to memorialize my cousin. My goal was to create something in which people wouldn’t forget about Natalie. So I first decided to write a song, which might capture her essence. Whether it’s a poem or lyrics, you can do this too.
In writing lyrics, you’ll always need some kind of hook, which is usually reflected in the song’s title. I decided to call my song, “Save Your Seat.” Natalie once told me a story about how she used to enjoy going over to her parents’ home and listening to her Uncle Leo play the guitar. Before she got home, she would call up and usually speak to her mother and tell her, “Save my seat.” So now this became an eternal promise: we will always “save your seat like it was yesterday.”
Save Your Seat
Verse 1: Yes we will save your seat
like it was yesterday
You would rush right home
As Uncle Leo played
It was a sad refrain
On his old guitar
Still we hear the melody
It echoes from afar
In the second verse, I bring in memories of our childhood: we used to go over to our grandparent’s apartment on Blake Avenue where my grandmother would serve us chopped liver and Gefilte fish!
Verse 2: Yes we will save your seat
As we look back in time
On Blake Avenue
We all sat down to dine
There was Gefilte fish
And chopped liver too
As we’re calling
Tears are falling
We reach on out to you
And now on the chorus I bring it back to reality as I could never get away from the image of seeing her casket in the ground (is the image too jarring? I’ll let you decide if I’m being too frank or harsh).
Chorus: Summer's come and gone
As we look upon
Your casket in the ground
We’re numb!
Oh so long ago
You played out in the snow
You left us… way too young
Verse 3 brings me to two particular photos I’m thinking of when Nat was around 10 years old. One has her sitting on the stoop of her apartment building drawing in her coloring book and another playing with her hula hoop, which most kids seemed to have way back in the 60s. Again, the more images from childhood will make your lyrics come alive.
Verse 3: Yes we will save your seat
The days have passed on by
Another photograph
And we will start to cry
There was a coloring book
On the red brick stoop
Dancing past, it will not last
You spin your hula hoop
The bridge reinforces the feeling that Nat is still with us. Instead of saying, “Natalie was your name,” I talk of her in the present tense.
Bridge: Forever in your debt
We cannot forget
Life will never be the same
We whisper in the dark
How you left your mark
Natalie is your name!
Verse 4: Instrumental
Chorus: Summer's come and gone
As we look upon
Your casket in the ground
We’re numb!
Oh so long ago
You played out in the snow
You left us… way too young
Verse 5 is my conclusion where it’s all summed up. Ultimately we must say goodbye to our departed loved ones. The tears will probably never dry but she’ll always be our “welcome guest” even though we must lay “her soul to rest.”
Verse 5: Yes we will save your seat
As we all wave goodbye
All the tears that fall
They sure will never dry
Yes we will save your seat
As our welcome guest
One more prayer
It is not fair
We lay your soul to rest
Yes we will save your seat, etc.
My other project was to create a slideshow of photos of Natalie from childhood to the last days. I called up Arlene and she was able to get a hold of Nat’s photo books and provided me with a treasure trove of images, along with photos from my own collection. I used Windows slideshow software to have the photos blend seamlessly into one another. The only thing left to do was to choose the right music. There should be one phrase in the song that really sticks out, that’ll want to make you use it for your slideshow. In Joni Mitchell’s “Cactus Tree,” I was drawn to the last line, “While she was somewhere being free.” And surely now, I believe she is free—with her spirit inside all of us, whom we will never forget for the rest of our days.
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