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Born Addicted

What does an addict think when she finds out she is pregnant? Does she consider what could happen to the baby? Does she think about her next fix? What happens to those babies when the mother never stopped using when she was pregnant?

By Cain CultPublished 6 years ago 5 min read
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What does an addict think when she finds out she is pregnant? Does she consider what could happen to the baby? Does she think about her next fix? What happens to those babies when the mother never stopped using when she was pregnant?

Born Addicted

My mom was addicted to cocaine, which was actually pretty common in the 1970s, and most people did not even think twice about cocaine use. The more money you had, the more likely you were to use cocaine. The white collar jobs had the most addicts since these were the people making the most money. My father was considered a white collar worker so to speak since he was a drug dealer. He was the one that kept my mom "hooked up" with her cocaine whenever she needed or wanted it.

I do not know the entire background story of how my parents ended up together or how my mom got pregnant; however, I do know I was a mistake!

As a little kid I walked into the kitchen one morning and saw my father sitting on the cold, hard floor crying into his hands. I walked over to him and asked him, "are you OK, Daddy?" He looked up at me with the darkest look in his eyes that only someone could imagine and said in a icy, shaky voice, "NO, I'm not OK, you ruined my life, if your mom wouldn't have ever gotten pregnant with you I would be fine. Or matter of fact you were dead, you weren't supposed to survive, why did you even survive, my life could be so much better right now!" That day my daddy became my father! This day and statement continued and still continues to haunt me.

I needed to learn more on what my father said to me and why he said it. I began doing research on my parents and how they met. I never told anyone why I wanted to know. I learned when I was around my parents to keep my mouth shut and my ears open. This taught me how to watch and pick up clues of my surroundings. I also learned that not only was I unwanted by my father, but my mom never truly wanted me either however, she did not express it as bluntly as my father. I was the "unwanted child!"

Deeper into my research of my parents' history is when I learned about my mom's addiction to cocaine. The addiction led back to when she was in high school and only got worse as she got older. When she found out she was pregnant with me, my father did what he thought was right and married my mom; however, my mom was not ready to stop using cocaine. The further along in her pregnancy she got, the higher her tolerance level for cocaine became. The higher her tolerance level got, the more cocaine she did. Which led to me being BORN ADDICTED to cocaine!

Born Addicted

Remember the beginning of the story where I said white collar workers used cocaine? This included nurses and many doctors. In the 1970s and early 1980s if a baby was born addicted to drugs, the parents only needed to slip some cocaine to the nurse or doctor on duty in order to keep it off the books. I was born at 12:01 AM and immediately started going into withdrawals. My heart was jumping all over the place, my body was going into seizures, and my little 6 lbs body could not handle it. I was pronounced dead at 12:04 AM from heart failure. My parents were given a birth certificate from the hospital with a copy of my footprints, and as they were filling out the death certificate paperwork, my monitors started beeping again. It was a miracle; as everyone was giving up on me, God had other plans. The nurse on staff got rid of the death certificate paperwork and gave my parents the official birth certificate paperwork. With all the cover-up they were trying to do to hide the fact that I was born addicted and died of an overdose, they forgot a small detail on the official birth certificate: the "Time of Birth." The nurse put down the time my heart restarted, 12:07 AM!

Being born addicted to cocaine left me extra sensitive to everything that is coke-based, including prescription medications. The smallest trace of it will stop my heart. I have never dared touched any form of the drug with fear of turning out like my parents. Then after having a life-saving surgery in my early 20s, I learned about my allergy. In addition to the allergy, I have lived with an irregular heartbeat my entire life which causes extremely low blood pressure. I have a very low immune system, which causes me to get sick if someone even looks at me when they are sick. I have both epilepsy and non-epileptic seizures that have stopped my heart on more than one occasion. My lungs never developed completely so I am prone to get pneumonia at least once a year. I am legally blind in both eyes; however, my right eye is much worse. I have signs of having lupus and I am afraid to get tested for fear of the results.

Those are just some the outcomes of a baby born addicted to cocaine. It's not just the mother ruining her life, however, it is the life of that baby that did not get a say in the matter that is ruined. I am a fighter though, and I battle this everyday in order to be able to say I beat the ADDICTION!

When you Google "unwanted child," it says another name is "Woods Cult." Being a cocaine baby, I find it a fitting name of Cain Cult. This is how I became who I am today.

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About the Creator

Cain Cult

The life I have lived can not be summed up in a small bio so if you want to know about me read my stories! I've been through a life that most people only see in movies so stay tuned!

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