Baby Cambdin​

These stories are how your life has been. I will be writing about your life each month about what you have learned, done, grow and more! This is Month.

Cambdin James Collins Harper,

You turned a month today so I thought I should tell you about your first month. You were born on August 9, 2017, at 10:00 PM at BAYLOR Scott and White in Grapevine Texas. It took you 41 weeks to get here and I had a 17-hour long labor to meet you. The day at that hospital was amazing. Your grandma Lisa and grandma Barbara, grandpa(pappy) Ryan, a couple friends all came to the delivery room to support your momma and daddy and it felt good to have them there. After you were born you were immediately loved! We had a new visitor every 30 min to come and see you! Momma was able to go home on that Friday but you couldn't be discharged for another day because you weren't wanting to be healthy on the test. Your jaundice kept rising and rising so they thought it would be better to keep you there. We got to go home on Saturday and let me tell you little one, Momma did not like having to get up every three hours to feed you. The first couple weeks were the hardest for me, I will tell you right now... I had a major case of baby blues, so for the first couple weeks your daddy and grandma Lisa had to help me at home, but around your 3-4 weeks a switched flipped and I fell madly in love with you. I had learned to love everything you did. And I hope the little things you do now become a part of you as you grow; from spreading your big toe from the rest of your little piggies because you hated them touching, you're little self-relaxing and getting calmed down by having a bath or even hearing the water run (you're going to be my water baby) or when you grab your hair with a hand when you're comfortable/in a deep sleep, along with seeing your first smile when you looked at me this morning and continued to smile through out the day. You truly are our blessing. Even though Daddy and I started our life together with you a little earlier than planned, you were definitely worth getting sick first thing in the morning for, having to buy more clothes because you just kept growing but God has a plan for us as a family and I can't wait to see where in life he takes us.

Daddy and I got into our first real fight the other day. We didn't talk to each other for about three days after our first argument and it took us having the house to ourselves to yell and be honest with each other. Mommy made a mistake, too. She told Daddy she didn't want to marry him and that he wasn't husband worthy... I still cry about why I said that. I didn't mean it. But, baby boy, I tell you this because you need to know that a well-loved relationship needs arguments to be able to work and you will learn that (when you're 20!)

You're favorite things as of today:

Mr. Giraffe is the biggest one. He is your pacifier and life is easier with him. You enjoy to suck for comfort and he is always there for your hold. You make momma and daddy nuts with it. You tend to pull him out of your mouth constantly. I think it's because you want attention.

Bath time: you immediately calm down when we turn the water on. Everyone thinks it's because Momma took baths at 1 and 4 o'clock in the morning because you loved to position yourself in my back and maybe they are right.

Food and sleep. Of course, those are a given because that's all you need to do, but you are definitely a little piggy.

And windows, lights and fans. I think you are too early to be fascinated by all these things and maybe you are. We have been saying that you will be smarter than all of us combined.

There are so many things I already regret not doing as a mom. I am trying my hardest to make sure I do everything right for you but I regret not breastfeeding you. I regret not being able to give you the love and affection that you need from, a mom, in the first couple weeks.

Love forever and always,

MOMMY