A Change Is Gonna Come

I did this video because my ex-wife hasn't let me see my children in a very long time. It seems that people forget the damage that this does to the children. Has it damaged me? Of course. I miss them every single day, and as of right now it's been over eight years. Sometimes I get a picture or a phone call if she is wanting money for something. Max was only 5 and Olivia was 4. My son's voice has changed as he is becoming a young man, and my little girl calls someone else Daddy instead of me. I cry every single day. Whenever I am in a crowd of people I always find myself looking around to see if they are there. I close my eyes and I see my little girl's smile and hear her laughter. I can almost feel Max wrapping his little arms around my neck. I miss my babies so much. The last thing my little boy told me the night I found out that she would be keeping them from me was: "Daddy I will always fight for you." I had no idea why he was even saying that, but I learned the next day, and I've thought about his little words every day since then. I even went so far as to tattoo the words on to my arm so I would look at them every single day. I went through several stages through all of this. At one point I hated her and prayed for bad things to happen to her.

But I would like to think that I've evolved as a man and as a father. I no longer wish bad things on her. In fact, I wish her happiness and joy, and I pray that she finds God so he can fill her heart with goodness. I still can't believe this evil thing that she's done and continues to do. When she does let me speak to them, she listens to every call so that if I tell them how much I miss them and want to see them she hangs the phone up. She say's I'm not allowed to say things like that because it makes them cry. People always tell me not to worry because when they turn eighteen they will come looking for me, but that isn't good enough. I'm missing out on their entire childhood. They aren't allowed to see or speak to anyone in my family either. Their Grandfather died and they barely knew him. Everything about it is sad and tragic. They have other brothers and sisters that they've never met, they have uncles and aunts and cousins, and even nieces and nephews that they have never seen. I'm a good father, and I love my children more than life. Our family court system is beyond corrupt, and they definitely favor the mother. The only way a man can get custody is if he proves the mother is bad. Why is that? Why does she not have to prove the father bad? Why is it just assumed that a mother is better suited to be a parent? Like I said... I made this video among others for them. The song itself is all about change. I hoped that someday if they were searching for me, they might come across this and know that their daddy never stopped thinking about them and loving them. Parental alienation is a very real thing, and it leaves scars that last a lifetime, and not just for the alienated parent, but for the children who were made into weapons by the other parent who claimed that they loved them. I hope you enjoy it. I miss you Max and Olivia, I thought about you all day every day, I love you bigger than the Universe, and I never ever wanted to be away from you! Find me!